Monday, November 05, 2007
oNe mOrE mOnTh tO gO...
Well.. after so long never update.. actualli was suppose to continue to update the FOC.. though i tink is like so long over due alreadi.. but then.. next time la..
Oh well.. i dunno why am i here at this hr at this period.. was suppose to slp and wake up early to study for the quiz on tues.. but somehow or rather.. just feel like letting something out of me.. anyway.. this blog is veri safe.. not many pple will actualli come here and look at what i am writing.. cos i rarely update.. thats why they will have no motivation to come anymore..
Hmmm.. exams are coming.. 14th Nov all the way to 30th Nov.. 2 weeks plus onli.. one month more before all this shit is over.. aft that.. IH will be starting.. meaning i will be busy still till sch reopen and still get busy.. well.. studies have been a struggle for me.. sigh.. damage has been done before hand.. due to the inefficiency of my assistant.. for anyone who dunno.. I am the Rec Sect of Hall 7.. i.e meaning i am one of the main committee members la.. so workload is heavy.. been concentrating on the portfolio so neglected my studies alot.. now trying veri hard to catch up.. time is a factor now for me alreadi.. must juggle it well.. hopefully i wont fail any of my modules.. i truely hope so..
Well.. i hope its safe to say here.. i fell for a gal.. name i shall not disclose.. just in case.. oh well.. seriously speaking.. its been a veri long time since i like a gal.. perhaps back to JC time ba.. haha.. totally clueless on how to woo a gal actualli.. hmmm.. to me.. i just try to be nice and concern for the gal i like lo.. tts all la.. well.. i am a veri typical aquarius.. sometimes i use my logic more then my emotion.. i.e. meaning.. even though my heart wants alot.. but my brain will weigh the pros and cons and more often than not.. the brain will always win.. so most of the time.. even though i like a gal.. i will just don care abt it worry tt it will spoil the friendship..
Now oso e same.. though i don realli know that gal veri well.. just well enuf as a friend lo.. cos rarely talk face to face.. more often than not its by msn.. ha.. and i am always the one initiate the convos.. sometimes will just feel sick and tired.. and feel like giving up.. but always something will happen and i ended up knowing tt i not going to give up.. i tink she is a veri special gal ba.. pretty and stuffs.. i like her eyes.. and her actions are veri cute.. though i got low confidence.. always telling myself she wont like me.. yet.. i just feeling happy enuf to see her and be by her side lo.. not realli sure if she can feel that i like her anot.. just hope tt even though she can sense it.. she wont avoid me can le.. i dunno shld i confess to her anot.. just afraid cant even be friends.. the more i see her.. the feelings of me towards her is getting stronger.. so much so tt my heart actualli beat faster when i saw her..
Simple gesture from her i will be veri contented alreadi.. even small smses.. though she rarely send.. even small concern abt my life i will be happy enuf la.. sometimes it will just make my day brighter..
Exams are coming.. right now just gonna concentrate on studies.. all this can wait until one month later.. still debating to myself whether to tell her anot.. i know its a risk every guy will have to take.. risk of losing a frd or having a chance.. well.. i am still thinking.. she is a veri nice gal.. and i dun realli wan to lose her.. even as a frd.. to be frank.. i nearly blurt it out once.. its like the atmosphere was right.. the place and timing was right.. just tt i control myself.. knowing exam is coming.. i don wan her to get affected in any ways.. sigh..
Right now.. tts the end of the post.. haha..
NiKe_bOi
3:33 AM
